i feel so.........blank and lifeless. day in day out , followin a stupid routine which is wake up , work , eat , use the computer and sleep again. I have absolutely no time nor energy for any contact with the outside world and its driving me nuts. it appears that my friends have gotten pissed by me always turning them down whenever they ask me out , to the extend that they don't bother to ask anymore , knowing very well the answer. just wanna say , im sorry to those i've neglected.. well actually i really wanna ask ya guys out whenever its my off day but hey , you know its not my style to do so.. and besides suddenly i feel very 'homely' , preferrin to lounge about at home . oh no. this is not the life i want. geez ,really hoping for the school term to start so i can live my life again.this ( work ) is really taking its toll on me man , i feel so damn easily irritated and more often than not i often catch myself with an ugly scowl on my face. its definitely one of the 'down' moments in my life. what the hell , i don't even bother to check out cute guys anymore. thats really a BAD sign.