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The suicide anthem
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Was surfing the WWW when i stumbled across an interesting nugget of info.

Apparently there's a hungarian song released in the 1940s that is the cause of about 17 suicides in Hungary , either due to its depressing lyrics or the rumours that the composer has put a curse on the song or something.

Anyway it got so hyped that European and American banned it from radio airplay altogether , including cover versions by reknowned artistes like Sinead O'Conner and Billie Holiday.

Legend has it that the composer's girlfriend commited suicide shortly after the song was released , and written on the suicide note was a short sentence of.....

"Gloomy Sunday."

OMG HOW EERIE.

And yes , the composer commited suicide too.

Here's the lyrics ( translated from the hungarian version ) , if you're interested. I find it hauntingly beautiful actually , and no , i did not have suicidal tendecies after reading it. Maybe it's just me , having been tortured by too many meangingless corny lyrics of the pop tunes of today , and i find such poetic finds quite a relief.

Title : Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadowsI live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coaches of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldn’t they be angry
If I thought of joining you?
Gloomy sunday

Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all my heart
and i have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be candles
And prayers that are said
But let them not weep
Let them know that I’m glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death I’m caressin’ you
With the last breath of my soul
I’ll be blessin’ you
Gloomy sunday
Dreaming,
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep
In the deep of my heart here
Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is tellin’ you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy sunday

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I wished i had the guts to download this song from Kazaa :(

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Here's a shoutout to all my friends ( Grace , Soryan , Jasmine , Julynn , Ian , Jerel , Caspar.. Etc )who has been putting up with my aloofness and mood swings for the past few days ( more to come i guess ! ) Thanks so much for being so understanding and accomodating.. I reckon i wouldnt have survived the heartbreak without you all.



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I gave my all.. I received.. Nothing.