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Jaded
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Jaded. This word has been hanging on my lips for the past few days , and it ain't a good sign.

I feel like i could really take a break now , away from everyone. I'm not saying that my life has been hard for the past week or so , or rather , it has been too good to be true.

What the fuck.

Rather , i have been so preoccupied with hanging out with different groups of friends so much , realisation dawned onto me that i have lost touch with myself.

And my old friends. The good ol' ones.

Pangs of envy attack me whenever i see couples going all lovey-dovey with each other. I must be crazy.

I think of him too , whenever i see even the simplest act of concern on the streets such as the boyfriend offering to carry the bag for the girl , and the girl reacting by expressing mock reluctance , giving in eventually .. With a genuine smile of joy , away from his eyes.

I miss being the girl who gets stray strands of hair tucked behind the ear by him

I miss the gentle brush across my cheeks with his hand

I miss looking at him nodding off on the bus

I miss washing the dishes for him.

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I need a getaway!

Forget Mauritius. Too exploited. Too many tourists. Too artificial.

I wanna go to the Seychelles.

To walk along this beach ..

To have the foamy waves lick at our feet..

To feel the sand between our toes..

To have him piggyback me.

How surreal eh ?

I don't mind Yorkshire .

Or Tibet.

Or Bhutan.

Okay , this long overdue post sounds way toooooo mushy and romantic . I apologise. This isn't like me. I need to reformat my brain !!!