Disconnected existence

They say pain is transient
They say it's only a fleeting ache
If so why do I always hear these voices
Claiming that I'd be better off dead ?

Life on the other side
Where my alter ego thrives
Feeding on what came out of Pandora's box
By day so excellently disguised

What aspirins fail to achieve
The only solution's a blade
Crimson liquid's rusty -
A morbidly heavenly taste

I see shadows lurking in places
When the others only see space
My distance from damnation
A hair's breadth from Lucifer's face

Tell me , what good is a shrink
When he is blind to my torment
Can he see the Others
Can he really comprehend ?

Apocalypse and Armageddon
A ephemeral thought for some
Yet , in the confines of my bedroom
I've been there and around

Lunging at your departing shadow
Tethering at the edge I reach out
I'm in agony and it's excruciating
Your assurance I needed but did without.

Sitting on the fence - A dilemma
Which way should I go ?
I find myself leaning towards the side
Where the fires burn - An amber glow

My existence feels disconnected
A situation so uncontrolled
A sinner will always remain a sinner
A condemned wandering soul

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Listening to : KoRn - I'm done