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It baffles me all the time when my mind acts the exact opposite way i expect it to be.

Like for example , despite the fact that i've had 3 expressos , a can of red bull and a bottle of chicken essence a few hours ago , i feel drowsy and ready to surrender to my bed already.

Actually i've already expected it , because i have psyched myself to stay awake no matter what to complete my advertising assignment tonight .

Confused ?

To cut a long story short : I feel tired when i'm not supposed to , and restless as hell when i'm supposed to.

I've always refrained from drinking coffee even if my bedtime is 12 hours away because i know very well that when it is time for me to sleep , my mind will keep reminding me of the tiny dose of caffeine i had in the morning and somehow i will be convinced that the caffeine is still working its magic and i will definitely lose my rest. 100% guarantee plus chop.

BUT YET NOW WHEN I'M SUPPOSED TO STAY AWAKE AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH CAFFEINE TO LAST ME A FEW DAYS , MY EYELIDS WEIGH LIKE A TONNE.

Yes , i'm sure my body has a mind of its own.

A mischevious one at that.

Its evident even way back in my lower secondary school days when my hand would inevitably start doodling on my textbook when i'm in the midst of copying notes.

Or when i've been craving for that bowl of prawn noodles the whole morning , i would go queue at the wrong stall and order a char siew bao and realise my mistake only when i have sat down with my purchase.

And its still happening .

I would purposely miss the stop i was supposed to alight at because my mind tells me that its still early , why not sit comfortably in the bus and enjoy the air conditioning awhile more ? You can always take a bus back to that stop later .

Hurrah.

I must not sleep . I must not sleep.

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listening to : disturbed - get psycho