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the problem with young girls
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Young girls nowadays scare the shit out of me.

Their transition from childhood to teenhood feels like it lasts only for a fleeting moment before they all bloom into stoic serious adults.

Yesterday on the train this person caught my eye as she was wearing a white tube top from Zara that i have and shamelessly i thought "Hey ! We have the same good taste !"

She was petite like me , but she was much shorter. Since she was facing the other side , i couldn't see her face.

When she turned around to sit beside me , i was shocked.

She.. looked so young !

Like 12 years old.

But what she wore was what most girls my age would wear. A tube , low-rise fitting jeans , heels and a white clutch bag.

I couldn't help but fixate my gaze onto her boobs which were quite a handful and i wondered if they were real or "made" with the help of her mother's bra ( stuffed with tissue )

I have reasons for my doubts because when i was in primary 6 i was a flat-chested singlet wearing kid , just like the other girls ( okay i still am)

I looked at her youthful girlish face not yet ravaged by the perils of puberty but already she was already hastening the aging process by unecessarily caking her face with make up.

I rested my head against the window and sighed.

When i was still 12 , i wore whatever my aunties bought me ( of which i suspect came out from the sales bin )

Now , i am shopping side by side with pre-pubescent young girls spouting accented english ( SPGs in the making ! ) at Zara or even Guess.

What the fuck ? They even have spending power !

When i was 12 ( Yes i know i'm long winded ) , i had only one dollar a day for pocket money . All of which was spent on ice-cream cones or the card-vending machine for Street Fighter cards .

I looked at the girl beside me fingering her primary school concession card with blood-red nails and sighed.

If i have a daughter , i will never allow her to indulge in such nonsense before she turns 16. Of course i'll allow her to be stylish but never will i allow her to dress so maturely before her time.

I know i am prejudiced against convent schools , but i would very much prefer to send my girl to a co-ed primary school because i don't like what i've seen so far.

Little girls in pinafores with PSLE assesment books on the tables making a din at a fast-food place , gossiping about how "Emily went to seduce Janice's boyfriend , isn't she such a bitch !?!"

Very disturbing , considering it came from a primary school kid.

And then i've seen girls who obviously look barely-legal shaking their booties so violently at clubs ( probably having gained entry with fake ids ) that their panties were visible because their ultra mini skirts were twirling like a high speed fabric carousel.


Bonjour mon petit dame

I might be wrong about them though , since i look 16 myself and i know how it feels to be assessed purely based on looks alone and not getting taken seriously.

Okay.... i digress.

It has been a very busy weekend.

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listening to : the bees - the sky holds the sun