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botched!
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sometimes i do things to myself that defies all laws of .. well , sensibility ?
recently i just got to know someone. he's damn cute ( with a cute dimple to boot ) , smart like hell , an excellent dresser and smells nice.
my female instincts tell me that he might be remotely interested in me. and vice versa.
and then i probably ruined it all single-handedly last night when one of my many alter egos reared its ugly head and i started acting really weird , tellin him out of the blue about my almost-tryst with another girl , the strong feelings i have about homosexuality and i must have sounded more liberal than i wanted to when i declared about my obsession with lingerie , and the killer line : "don't you think t-back thongs are so damn sexy huh? i have tonnes ! i must have blown like $200 on panties when i was in LA !"
he just chortled heartily and switched topics.
bear in mind we've only gotten acquainted like a few days ago. i think sex and panties should be strictly taboo topics until after the first week. at least , in moderation.
actually i don't think its my alter ego , its just so typical of me to start rambling when excited or engaged in a good lively banter.
maybe its just me but somehow he sounded slightly indifferent and doubtful after my outburst.
th conversation ended awkwardly with him asking good-naturedly for his good night kiss and the wretched me had to play the smart alec by saying
"eh.. kisses are like wine. the more it ages , the better it is'
W.T.F ?!!!
i swear i wasn't playing hard to get. i was just embarassed ( and dare i say , shy ) and i had to cover up by making a "clever" retort.
obviously it backfired and he was like.. hmm , okay.
someone , kill me please.
i'll be very surprised if he ever talks to me again. that weird kitschy girl with gay tendencies and a probable sexual deviant.
fiona oh fiona. you're a klutz.
right , i'm heading dinner with WWE wrestler wannabe who enjoys executing mock WWE moves on me. i swear to god he almost killed me when he attempted to "pile-drive" me at his place sometime ago.
godspeed.
gahhhhh.
