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musings from a single yellow female
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Someone handed me a flyer promoting a flea market just now when i suddenly noticed the date it was going to be held on.

February 16 , 2006.

My finger wandered to the date absent-mindedly. This date.. Why do i suddenly feel so queasy ?

Then i remembered.

It's two days after that dreaded day.

Valentine's day !!!

I'm too old to be whining about this relatively *ahem* unimportant date but when you look back only to realise that you have spent it lacklustre-ly for the past 19 years , it leaves a bitter taste in your mouth.

Let's see.. February 14 , 2005 was spent working and if my memory serves me well , i headed to Mel's place after work where the few of us spent the night ogling at the TV screen while playing Silent Hill on the PS2.

LOL.

Memorable , indeed.

Last year i dated some very colourful people , characters who have left indelible impressions on me.

There was the Ah Beng , the menace who's actually really gentle. Well to me at least.

There was the ex classmate with the pretty eyes which he uses to its maximum capacity.

There was the ultra possessive yet sweet psychologist wannabe whom my family absolutely adored despite the lack of interaction. Especially my mother , whom he drove home once.

There was the sibei-on Sensitive New Age Guy , quiet and unassuming but underneath his brooding exterior.. a conversationalist.

There was the wacky designer arty-farty nutcase with a penchant for all things weird. His deep-set dimple and groomed brows. I like.

But i think i damn suay lah , because i don't remember celebrating any Valentine's or birthday with any special someone before. Gahhh.

Best part is , the situation feels ominous. Looks like i'm going to spend it again with the girls !!

And oh..

Remember how i lamented about how i couldnt fit into the Square Cut jeans a few days ago ?

Guess what. I went to try it on again today.

The female mind is hard to comphrehend.

For mega reals.

I thought that maybe i didn't breath in as much as i could have , nor did i execute enough moves to enable a successful buttoning up because i remember someone once told me that it's easier when you squat down while pulling up the trousers. ( how mind-boggling )

That i did but it didn't came as a surprise that i still couldn't zip up half the zip , much less button up the button-fly above it.

The reason why i am so adamant about it being way too out of my league is because it is a rare occurence that denim fits like a glove around my thighs , because of my small frame.




Notice how the fly sticks out like a sore thumb and how inflated my arse really is for my size

Reluctantly i asked to try size 25 and moaned about my predicament to the salesgirl.

"Seriously.. Girls who can fit into this are freaks ! All my prior Levis' are size 24s lor.."

I caught her sniggering when she replied

"The cutting is very very ( she seemed to place unecessary emphasis on the "very" ) small , thats why. For your size i think size 25 would be better"

For my skeletal bag-of-bones ?!!

So i bo pian try size 25 lah. Lo and behold , i even had difficulty zipping it up but it was still too loose for my liking.

Yan laughed and me and said i overestimated myself. I think she's just being mean lah since she wears a size 28 ( or even a staggering 30 for this stupid Square Cut range and thats why she hasn't tried it yet. LOL )

Chide me for all you like but i think i might be getting it soon. I'll just bring it to the tailor and have him snip a cut around the waist area though it'll be rather unsightly but nothing that a belt can't hide. HEH.

Or i'll just have to pray that my weight-gain milk powder really helps and then maybe in a month's time i'll fit beautifully into a size 25. =D

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listenin to : pink martini - clementine

p/s :

To that person who's a friend's friend of my cousin who told my cousin about my blog.... WAH LAO EH ! for the love of god , don't do that ! i'll wither and curl into a burnt satay stick if my family reads about my debauchery..

and to the girl in the red top at Wisma just now around 6pm who pointed at me and whispered "i read her blog one.. " to her staring friend.

Next time say hi lah , aiyoh..