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brokeback mountain ** MINOR SPOILERS IN GREY !!**
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caught the highly anticipated movie with k just now and gosh. i must say it really lives up to its hype and mind you i'm never one easily swayed by the opinions of others especially when it comes to films.

i am so happy that the year has kicked off really well , so far all the films i've watched didn't disappoint. well except for that dick and jane show lah.

the simmering passion between the two men were so intense that i ached for them both though throughout the movie k was muttering curses under his breath. he's a damned homophobic. i didn't allow k's indifference to affect me. was suprised that i actually found the intimacy between the two strapping young men alluring.

i was so affected by the movie that i was still thinking about it on the way home. and i will probably will for days or even weeks to come. alot of afterthoughts really.

jake gyllenhaal is really.. delice. what i didn't understand about the movie was

1) how the protaganists didn't seem to age even after 20 years.

2) heath ledger's funky voice

heath ledger's perfomance was so good. it was as if he had altered his personality altogether for the role.

the backdrop of the movie was something else. shot in canada instead of wyoming it brought back memories of feelings of being in an open space one could NEVER get in singapore.

driving through nevada's highways. having the winds mess up your hair with the windows wound down while you gaze out into the rolling and ever changing landscapes .. miles of brown and towers of rock and green... priceless.

i think this tells me something about not being able to stay in this country for the rest of life even though i pledge allegiance to my motherland. nope , its way too constricted for a wanderlustful soul like me. i crave for openness , in more way than one.

when jake gyllenhaal's character died , somehow or another i identified with how ennis ( heath ledger ) felt as the next scene opens with him sitting on the steps facing out into the open.

grappling with the passing of someone you really love is never an easy thing.

loss can never be dismissed with just a simple flip of hair . you may be able to chuck it away into the back of your mind but it manifests your every idle moment and you start thinking about how it would be if only the person was right next to you again , how you would hold him and then reality slaps you in the face. its a tedious process alleviated only by time.

i want to read the screenplay so bad. if you have lobang for screenplays tell me hor ! the esplanade library on stocks up on really old ones. bah.

i beg your pardon if this post sounds disconnected because i am so damn tired. tomorrow i will have to get up early to visit the temple. and then the compulsory sunday lunch with the folks. i will clean my room tomorrow , do some really overdue reading and then mull over my projects.

and then the LOOONG week shall begin , thanks to the Singapore Fringe Festival thats gonna kick off on tues.


g'nite. its time to dream of jake gyllenhaal in his skin-tight denim and how i would spent ten minutes to tug it off his manly legs.