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on why i feel men are assholes
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Xin stayed over with me at my aunt's on monday night , and she borrowed my cousin's tee for sleeping in.

this morning i walked groggily to the kitchen only to find myself stepping on that very tee - my aunt had converted it to nothing more than a mere piece of rag.

"how come that tee is on the floor ?"

"your cousin can't wear it anymore lah.."

"huh , why ?"

"because its not good for a guy to wear something that has been worn by a girl"

i was indignant

"what the ? what's the logic behind it ?"

"nothing , its just not good , thats all"

my morning drowsiness had already worn off by then. i felt sick to the stomach , having witnessed such an act of narrow-minded sexism right here at home.

"wow , so that means the pillow case i sleep on and the blanket i cover myself with , do you have to dispose all of them as well ?"

"no , because you didn't wear it and there wasn't any contact with your body since u were already clothed"

"what if i sleep naked ?"

"don't come and argue with me lah"

"so how about the towels i use?"

"yah i have to convert them into rags too"

WTF !?

i can't possibly describe how incensed i felt at that point of time.

its like , our bodies carry some sort of plague that will cause acute degeneration of male skin.

what a stupid close-minded bunch of retards.

i couldnt be bothered to take my stand anymore and went back to bed.

just last night , i was walking towards my bedroom wrapped in a towel and my aunt happened to see me and she gave me a dressing down right there and then for being so inappropiately dressed.

"but i'm just walking towards the bedroom what ?"

"yah but look at yourself ! do you know how disgusting you look , dressed so scantily like that ?"

"but we're all family ! i grew up with you guys !"

"so ?"

right , so now it is an offence for walking around clad only in a towel at home.

so just now , after making sure everyone has left for work and school already , i took out a piece of paper and wrote

"ALL THE TOWELS IN THIS DRAWER HAS BEEN STAINED BY FIONA TAN AFTER SHE HAS UNFORTUNATELY MADE DIRECT BODILY CONTACT WITH THE TOWELS BY WRAPPING THEM ALL AROUND HER ARMS AND LEGS. HELLO , RAGS !

xoxo,

FIONA"

and pasted it in front of the towel drawer.

i am unable to comprehend just why the female body is considered dirty in many cultures. after all , we're the very bodies men fuck.

so , if we're really that filthy, why don't the men castrate themselves after sex ??

fuck all this shit , i need to drink tonight.

i am an angry person today.

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listening to : iron maiden - fear of the dark