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you are a suck
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i am so gleefully glad that i have finally managed to adjust back my topsy-turvy body clock because it is barely 1am now but yet i am feeling dead tired. WOO HOO.

so its valentine's today yea. i shall keep the mean words to myself since this a public blog. lol.

had a run-in with the so-called best friend today and i know i really shouldnt but i dug all the skeletons out of the closet during the short but fiery confrontation which ended with the words

"and after all that has happened in recent weeks , the only thing you gain would be the loss of trust from the greatest bunch of friends you will ever have"

so many things has happened between us , she was , simply put , too much of a taker than a giver.

one of the most unforgivable acts would the one which happened at my grandpa's funeral a month ago.

nothing happened , except that she simply didn't turn up for the entire 5 day wake and didn't call me at all until 2 weeks later and all she could say for her absence was

"aiya , go also no use what.. at most i can say nice things to you which is what the others will be doing right??"

all this coming not from a casual acquiantance but someone whom i refer to as a best friend. i know i'm too old for such best friend issues but i hold such friendships really close to my heart.

and i actually forced myself to forgive her.

nope , not anymore. i retract my forgiveness because she took it for granted.

sigh.

good night.