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discuss disgust
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today mr perfect noticed my puffy eyes and the air of malaise around me and without asking he startled me by giving me a neck rub in full view of the rest.
now , i get really anal when guys i'm not in lust/love/very close with touches me. or even worse , tickle. i can assure you that i see zero humour in you digging your fingers into my ribs , either as a "punishment" ( e.g ORHH you promised not to curse anymore but you just did ! i'm going to punish you ! ) or for the sake of generating a reaction from me. fuck off , i know the male psyche only too well , you just want to take advantage, arseholes.
if it was anyone else with his fingers around my nape , i would have yelled blue murder and smack his hand indignantly. but because mr perfect was just such a nice person without motives , i couldn't so i just sat there quietly , a sense of utter revolt sweeping over me.
about half a minute later the disgust got so bad i actually felt slightly nauseous.
lucikly he stopped.
of course it would have been a completely different scenario if it was someone i liked so close to me.
and oh by the way.
i got the shock of my life when i heard pig-like snorts halfway through a lecture today. i turned around and i saw one of my prettiest classmate laughing her head off. and yes , puncturing her girlish guffaws , were the unlikely snorts coming from the most unlikely person.
reminds me of kt , a guy i used to find rather cute but his peculiar way of laughter really put me off. it didn't even sound like laughter , it sounded more like me having an asthma attack , only that the wheezing sounded gruff.
but of course , of course , so as to sound politically correct , i shall add that these are only superficial , that what really matters is in the heart. yeaaaaa.
yawn.
was supposed to head down to thumper's but having slept only a combined grand total of 7 hours in the past 2 days , i concede defeat.
to think i was so looking forward to get drunk with her and to grind random hot femmes.
extremely volatile and bad mood these few days. someone please hold me , and feed me vanilla ice cream with crunchy toffee bits.
or ben and jerry's cherry garcia ice cream.
or warm chocolate cake.
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listenin to : last days of april - aspirins and alcohol
