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have i been missed?
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hello all.

have been up to my neck in work this week. an avalanche of photoshoots and never-ending fashion sourcing assignments have kept me on my toes. i've also been mildly depressed ( not clinically kinda depressed but you know, the blues ). no actual reason why i should feel down but i felt so disconnected with myself mid-week that i took the day off on wednesday to do some soul-searching, and caught a movie, tony takitani, alone. ironic i chose to watch a film that revolves around solitude when i'm experiencing it first hand. as expected of most arthouse films, tony takitani was a surreal atmospheric one with rather interesting editing. and the soundtrack was awesome too.

though i've been lucky enough to date two wonderful characters in the past few months, it is something i'd never consider an actual relationship. i've never felt emotionally attached to david nor mark, and i think that i liked them because they just happened to be there to fill the void, though temporary. now that i've decided to stop seeing david because i simply don't feel any sense of longing for him, it's interesting to note that it doesn't feel that i've lost nor gained anything.

i think i'm desperate. i'm so desperate to fall in love, even if its one-sided. i miss the heartache, the increased sensories with every mere brush, the i-want-to-marry-this-man thoughts.

for awhile, i thought mark would be the one. then i realised that i liked him because he was good looking and cheeky. then, i thought david was perfect. he was extremely intelligent and lavished me generously. but that was all.

i had come to a conclusion that both "relationships" were purely physical. not quite such a bad thing since i liked spending time with them, but it left me emotionally wanting.

perhaps the loneliness that has been plaguing me for so long is an intended build-up to something intense.

i need to pull myself together because recently the most trivial of matters affects me so badly that i mull over it for days. and i shouldn't, really, because i'm lucky in every sense of the word except maybe in the love department.

right. so potential suitors, don't shy away. i promise u i am not hideous and i am mildly intelligent. :p

okay. moving on.

i may not be a fashion guru but i think i can damn well tell from a good outfit to a bad one.




i cannot place any more emphasis that prints and prints DO NOT go together. goodness. sometimes i see office ladies wearing a lined blouse with lined skirts, which is bad enough. but checkers and (ugly) camo prints ?! oh oh, and of course, lovely clean canvas shoes. magnifique!




CHIFFON PINK DRESS AND CHUNKY BOOTS ARE THE NEW BEAUTIFUL ! SPREAD THE WORD ! i shall not even mention her friend who apparently feels that she is very punk-rock chic. lol. bring our innocent 14 year olds back !! and yes i had to get nicho to pretend that i was taking a photo of him. hahaa.

more fashion boo-boos coming up =)

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listening to : the postal service - be still my heart

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and oh.. i finally pierced my ears after three years of procrastinating.