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as the saying goes, if your best friends dislikes the person you're going out with, then it is almost guaranteed that there has got to be something wrong, somewhere.

i've learnt the lesson the hard way before, THRICE over. firstly it was qiang, the greatest love of my adolescent life. my best friend yan absolutely loathed my going ga-ga over him, her best friend instincts strong and pulsating with a life of its own. ( okay i know its really childish to have a "best friend" at the grand old age of 20 :p )

"FIONA FOR THE LAST TIME GET OVER HIM ALREADY! WHATS WITH ALL THE PLAYCATCHING AT YOUR AGE?!", yan often screamed those words at me whenever i went to her lamenting about my sad sad love life back then.

and she was right, of course. qiang and i never made it together. as an outsider she saw things much clearer than i did than from my rose-tinted perspectives. i can still remember very vividly the day it all came crumbling down, with me clutching my phone tightly with some very brutally honest messages from qiang, mascara-ed tears streaming down my face and yan crying with me ( though she laughed her head off at my stupidity 10 minutes later ) in macdonalds. "SEE I TOLD YOU THIS WILL HAPPEN LAH! DON'T BE SO DRAMA LAH!" she lashed at me before asking me for a dollar to buy soft drinks.

then came along mark and david. she wasn't that vehemently against the both of them, but she felt bad vibes from the two foreign objects she has never even seen before. sure enough, none of them lasted.

the only person whom she has approved of all these years since i knew her when we were both 16 was hunn. she liked him and couldn't stop singing his praises. though not surprisingly it didn't work out in the end, it ended amicably at least, and it was an extremely fulfiling time i spent with him while he was still around ( no he didn't die, he went overseas. i know you're reading this so don't get too swell-headed, hunn !! )

i don't know if this applies to men, but females as you all know have strong intuitions, and though it has failed me sometimes ( e.g failing to warn me about the wall i would walk into seconds later ), i can safely say that i can rely solely on my instincts to make an accurate ( up to 80% lah ) judgement of someone. now of course i'll get detractors about the previous statement since i shouldnt judge another based on face value but i'm not entirely attributing it to one factor alone. i don't know how to describe it in detail lah, its just like i have this equally amazing ability to "feel" whether a household has their television set on just by walking past their flats/houses. no shit !!

whats the word again..? oh yeah.. vibes. its like sometimes you see sweet young things with a face to die to for but yet you don't fancy them because they give out negative vibes. or how you'd never try out a new ice cream flavour even though it looks yummy enough because you somehow know that you wouldn't like the taste.

to be honest i'm not really sure if im making any sense at all or if i'm stringing my thoughts together coherently because its 2am and i am really fucking tired after an entire day of photoshoots.