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big sigh in the morning
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sitting in an office where everyone seems to unusually happy for a hazy monday morning, i can't help but wonder if i'm the only grounchy face around.

i admit, i'm the cause of all the unhappiness i'm feeling now. i allowed myself to fall for mark all over again despite being pretty damn sure that i wouldn't. but i did. we had a long conversation about what went wrong the last time and it didn't really end with a conclusion but we did end up sleeping with each other. again.

this isn't a "boo hoo hoo he doesn't love me" situation but rather, i just want to commit to a relationship and yes, despite his roving eye i'm willing to overlook all that has happened and to walk away into the sunset ( ha ha ha. ) with him. but the question is, does he want to ?

my editor once said that most writers are a bunch of sad oppressed people.

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listening to : snow patrol - run

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okay its not hard to remain sullen in an office where you have colleagues who run around greeting people merry christmas in october