i'm fine, really. because i am an attractive, slim ( NOT skinny ), intelligent and well-dressed female with no lack of admirers.

okay i'm not that fine really. i've been stretched emotionally to the maximum, i'm tearing up over the most trivial matters, wandering around void decks searching for a place i can cry my eyes out without any one seeing.

its so fucking stupid to be upset over this one guy who obviously has less than squeaky clean reputation that i naively chose to overlook and this whore i know who happens to be the village bicycle ( read:she fucks anyone with a cock) whose "advice" to me was to steer clear of mark. and then i find out that she has been hooking up with mark.

how utterly stupid, stupid of me. god knows how many diseases this woman carries. she is the most vicious, scheming and spiteful person i know. she is the role of the typical villain in drama series personified. ironically i was on friendly terms with her not too long ago because i emphatised with her but now its like a case of biting the hand that feeds you ( not literally but you get what i mean )

i am angry with myself, very tired, am suddenly inflicted with dry skin and bad hair and is in desperate need of love. thank god for friends.