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THE GREAT FAT EXPERIMENT
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perhaps it is the stress and lack of sleep, because even though my weight still is stagnantly standing at a mere 39kg, everyone else is commenting how much skinnier i look.
only a week ago, i was happily strutting around in my skinny jeans and heels knowing that i belong to the elite group of people with a BMI of 14 who can truly look good skinny jeans.
maybe you guys don't know it but it is really depressing to hear the words "fiona" and "thin" in the same sentence on a constant basis. and even more so because i still weigh the same as i did three fucking months ago you imbeciles!
well not anymore because today i flipped both my middle fingers to the world and said
"HERE'S TO Y'ALL FAT WHINEY BITCHES WHO THINKS I AM SCRAWNY!"
and bought this huge bottle of ( likely ) bollocks from GNC
i don't know how much this bottle of protein is going to make me look any less anorexic but i am desperate enough to try.
and yes it tastes like shit, only creamier.
i have to drink a huge cup of this nasty concoction twice daily for 10 days!!! woe is me !! =(
this 11 day long holiday ( my boss gave the team 26-29 dec off so it clashes with the long weekends = 11 day break. WOO HOO ), i am going to do nothing but sleep and gorge until i throw up.
i am bloody determined to put on at least 2kg by the first week of January.
will keep you guys updated on the progress ( or lack thereof)
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listening to : goo goo dolls - iris
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UPDATE AT 10.30AM, 26 Dec :
day 1 of the torture ritual. the portion was MUCH bigger than expected. shit, after adding the water to the three mammoth scoops of powder it was almost one liter of sewage with white turds.
i didn't even manage to get past the first gulp before i emptied half into the toilet and topped it up with more water because it was just so thick and grainy.
i forced it down my throat with tears streaming down my eyes because it was really THAT hard to swallow.
and now i am feeling really nauseous. oh god please give me the strength to endure ten more days.
