speaking of pets, i noticed hammie has been looking rather lethargic lately. it is very unlike of her to lie down motionless yet awake, sulking quietly. she is pretty old now, almost two years old! i guess that's why.
maybe it is better for me to remain single, as i have come to realise that i have developed too many pet peeves and habits as a result of having the luxury of staying mostly alone for the last 6 or 7 years.
sleeping habits especially. i never knew how serious my "loner habits" were until recently when i started staying over at mark's place. yes laugh all you want but i've never slept in the same bed with a guy before, except for absolutely chaste bedtimes with the childhood sweetheart.
i could only sleep knowing that mark was fast asleep, because i was afraid that he'll baulk at how horrible i look while deep in slumber. YES i look like some demented monster unconscious because i sleep with my mouth wide open. because of this stupid vanity, i had to make sure i was awake before he was. which explains why i am always so dog-tired the morning after.
him being the temperate ang moh, the air-con would always be at full blast at home. poor sensitive nose of mine would start flowing like a broken dam. he would offer to turn the blasted thing off but because the smart boy doesn't own a fan, i would always reject it because i'd rather be sniffing then to sweat buckets. this also happens frequently at hotels and friends' places.
and there are the little things that really get on my nerves, such as the omnipresent blanket issue. i think you all know how it is when you wake up in the middle of the night freezing your arse off because your special other has somehow managed to entwine himself warmly in the blanket. you then attempt to gently tug on the blanket to claim your side, only to be greeted by a grunt. so what do you do? selfishly wake the other person up by yanking the damn thing away or shrug and give up? yeah yeah call me submissive but i always choose the latter. I MAKE A DAMN GOOD GIRLFRIEND.
i cannot imagine giving up all my bad habits such as rubbing my nose really hard, clearing my occasionally itchy throat (and making all sorts of weird clicking sounds) and the super gratifying mega sneeze that reverberates around the house.
i think i will gently suggest the idea of sleeping seperately when i finally settle into another relationship again.