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i need to whine
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i have just experienced the worst day in 2007 so far.

firstly, i have an enormous ulcer at the corner of my lips. which is a really rare spot for ulcers to appear in. and it fucking hurts. i can't talk much because it stretches my lips too much and i have to cut my food up into tiny little pieces.

secondly, i have just admitted myself into the jobless market. yes thats right i am OUT OF A JOB. no i didn't get sacked. i turned down XXX magazine's latest assignment a week ago, which probably means they'll never call me ever again since they have a long list of freelancers waiting. why call fiona, the ingrate?!

and why did i reject it, you ask. i am still madly in love with fashion and writing but because i thought i had secured a new position at XXX website and was supposed to commence work next week. but it didn't materialise. all i got was an email from the editor telling me that the position had been taken up. thanks huh, telling me four days before i was due to report to work.

so now i am jobless.

to think i was so revved up to start a fulltime job again!

fuck it.

so after wrapping up the very last shoot with XXX magazine, i headed to town to pamper myself. i was suddenly craving for ramen so i popped into sushi tei.

then as i opened my mouth to savour the steaming ramen, i yelped in pain.

I HAD FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT THE STINKIN ULCER!

so i couldnt enjoy my food and was nibbling it strand by strand.

then i missed my train. after that, i missed the bus.

i need some lovin' !!!!!